Finally got to blog!

Started work last Monday, more of not used to coming home late everyday rather than having to wake up early actually. It's not exactly late.. I reach home at abt 8 plus if I manage to finish my stuffs fast enough. But I miss the times when I only need to spend three to four hrs at school before going home. :P

Work has been good. I'm occupied enough for time to pass by quickly. I hope I'll be this busy always. :D Sounds a little masochistic, but yeah. I don't really like to be idle with nothing to do. I'll get so restless.

Anyways, I think a lot of ppl still do not really understand what I am really working as, as well as what my division does. But I'm too lazy to explain here. :DD If you really want to know, pls ask me when you see me in person k?

Anyanyway, my colleagues and superiors are really nice and funny!

Ok, that's all I'm in the mood to blog now. I shld have photos to blog, but have not met Jiahong online yet....

Oh yes, pls tag!

Movies!

Why does it always happen so that I can pass 4 or 5 mths without watching a single movie and suddenly watch 2 movies in a single week? Y'all know that I went to watch Pursuit of Happyness past Mon. On Wednesday, I watched Music and Lyrics with Jane.

No matter how sua gu this sounds, I visited The Cathay for the first time on Wednesday. Discovered a completely lovable shop there. They had all these cute notebooks, photoalbums and what nots. You can imagine how I much love that shop seeing that I love shops like Prints and AnBC. =))

Anyways, Music and Lyrics was better than I expected. Hugh Grant, a confirm lao eng gee was very very funny. His sarcastic remarks, and the stupid dance moves. They make me giggle everytime I see them. You really have to catch the movie to know what I'm talking abt. And Drew Barrymore's soo pretty. And she was her typical blurr character, which was actually the main reason I didn't want to watch the movie. But... as you can see, I enjoyed it.

Photos!

Isn't he cute??

Went to watch Pursuit of Happyness yesterday with Karen and Ginnette.

It was a very very good show. A must watch! Don't know why Ben didn't like it. It's not really a feel-good story, cos the show's sad 80% of the time. But it is inspiring, and it explains why some ppl slog so hard at work. I think as Singaporeans we complain too much abt work that we don't really appreciate what work gives us and we don't realise that we have to enjoy work cos it's what that occupies 45hrs of our time every week.

And jaden smith was just soo cute!

Anyways, the good night was marred by the horrible service of Wheelock's Fish&Co. Not ever going back there again. We spent more than 35% of our time waiting. Waiting for the ice water, the extra sppon, the dessert, the bill.... In short, horrible service.

Have been going to town the past few days continuously, the transport costs are so high!

Went to orchard on Thurs to buy my niece's birthday present. I serioosly cannot shop at AnBC. I feel like buying almost everything there! Anyways, cos my niece is 8, we decided to buy her 8 items. So we bought mechanical pencil, notebook, stickers and so on. Pink and purple, cutesy stuffs that an 8 yr old would love. After seeing all those things, I couldn't help wanting to be 8 again. =))

Went to sign the contract for my job on Friday. Had to do a medical checkup too.

Saturday was a long day. Went for band prac in the mrng, then home. Then out again to my niece's birthday party, which coincidentally was at Jialin's condo. We took lots of photos.. Can't wait to see them! The food was bad, the cake was good. Went down to vivocity after that. Shopped, then to sakae for dinner. Had several hilarious moments then. We sat chatting till 9plus when we left in search on ben&jerry's :D Love hanging with my cuzzies!

Sunday was even longer than Sat. Woke up at 630 in the mrng for church. Then went to meet my cousin in Orchard to buy her stuffs. Then my sis came, and we waited for my mum. Shopped again. Bought shoes for work. My cousin was the biggest spender that day. Hahs. Anyway, dislike March. Cos of allll the birthdays taking place. 4 in all. And have to splurge on all 4. :( Then my dad came and we went to Sun with Moon at Wheelock! The food's superb! First time i ate sushi that costs $5 each! Haha. But it was very very good. I was so tired I slpt at 11 that night. :DD

Men are such contradictory creatures. Just a few days ago I was fretting over this job searching period of my life and so afraid that I won't be able to get a job. But now that I hv one, I dread going to work. Keep wondering if I will match up to their expectations, if I can perform up to task. Still do not know why they hired me. Starting work next week. Most prob on Tuesday.

FYI, I'll be working at suntec convention and exhibition centre as a proj coordinator. Don't ask me what my duties are 'cos I'm also not v sure. =P

Anyways, this is my good news from the previous entry.

BUT, seriously thank God for this. I actually got a job on my first interview. =DDD

I'm bored. Only after a week of hols, I'm bored already. Is it a good sign? At least it shows that I'm not a slacker. =)

May have good news coming up in a few days. Pray for me, wish me luck, keep your fingers and toes crossed...

What's up with the use of "label" in blogs and the word random nowadays?

Here's a typical conversation between 2 old ladies who meet each other on the streets. (in Hokkien/Mandarin and a near shout)

Ah ma A: Where are you going?
Ah ma B: Huh?
A: Where are you going?
B: Oh, going to my daughter's place
A: Going to?
B: My daughter's place
A: Huh?
B: Going to my daughter's house
A: Oh, to your daughter's house..
B: Yes, going to my daughter's house

See how they manage to repeat sth 5 times in one conversation? =D

He's my new eye-candy :DD

Super handsome. Absolute melts.

FYI, just in case, he's Daniel Henny. Otherwise known as Henry from Kim Sam Soon.

Is it even possible to be hurt by people who you think do not play a impt part in your life? It is a very minor matter. A mere slight. How? Plummets my spirits.

I so want to tell them that I am hurt by their actions. But it doesn't achieve anything.

Just a week or so ago, I was thinking that I have not had a sad entry in my blog for a long time.

Happy New Year!

Had a great first day of Chinese New Year yesterday! 'Cos it fell on a Sunday, it was a super long day for me. Woke up at 6 plus in the mrng to go to church, then to my ahma's hse. Used up half my energy playing monopoly with 2 kids. And I mean kids. 8 and 6 yrs old each. And I was harrassed by the 8 yr old girl. Super tiring la. But they're so cute!

Went over to my maternal aunt's hse in the evng. It was quite boring at first cos we had nth to do. Both the mahjong tables were occupied by the adults, nth good was on the tv.. In the end we went to my cousin's room to hv girls talk. Haha. After that we started playing blackjack. Yesterday's blackjack was the funniest ever. We spent more than half of the time rolling on the floor laughing. =DD

It was the last day of school today, if you do not consider the days when we have to come back for exams. Tuesday was our last tutorial, today's our last lecture, last meal in the school canteen..

But we had lots of fun today. Heh. Went around looking for teachers to pass them cards we made for them. And Ms Tirzah and Mdm Aisha were super funny. I think we spent abt half an hr in their room disturbing the other teachers with our laughter and jokes. I'm soo going to miss the teachers! And the food. And some tutorials and even a few lectures. =) And a certain part of my class. And Denise, Jiahong, Corrin.. And even AiLi, Wency and Harveen. And projects..

Happy Valentines Day

Kinda happy today, cos I rcved so many gifts.. No flowers though. Hehs :DDD



So thank you Denise, Corrin and Jiahong!

Thanks to Jane too!

Pictures of our last presentation..

Trying to take weird photos..

Yay!

Everything has finally come to an end. Well, not everything, cos we still have a test on Saturday, but still.. It's on Saturday, four days away Saturday! Hahs.

Today was the last presentation I'll ever have in poly. Went quite ok, though the teacher was v irritating. Took some photos, which was the best part. Hehs. I'm going to miss my grp mates.. I don't know if the cliche "being through a lot together" applies to us, but we definitely had tons of fun doing projects. I seriously do not think I'll hv as much fun with another grp, and I will not hv felt so comfortable. Plus, I trusted them.

To repeat myself, I'm going to miss them. Miss Corrin's hyper-ness after her caffeine shots from coke and all her silly cracks. Miss Denise's roll-eyes expression. Miss Jiahong's sit-by-the-side-and-laugh-at-us nature. Miss Calvin's irritating-ness. Er, maybe won't miss Calvin that much. =D

Some crazy photos.

It's February!

Irregular meals, irregular slping hours, irregular working hours.. all these will end on Monday!! Maybe not irregular meals though.. Hehs.

Sort of taxed out because of the past two weeks. Deadlines and tests all crammed into two or three weeks. Thank God these things do not leave a lasting impression on me.

Anyway, had good news from MA2 on Monday!! First time I did so well in a test since primary school? Hah. Hopefully the exam will be just as good. =)

Edited
Met a lot of ppl this week. No need to mention my poly friends la. Hehs.

Met Uncle Tony at a bus stop on Thursday I think. His car got into a minor accident on the way to school so he had to take bus.

Met Cheng, Rena and the rest for dinner for Rena's birthday that day too. It was very long day that day. Had reached sch at 9 plus for the stupid IB proj consultation which only managed to answer one qns. Managed to fill my time up till the time to meet them in the evening. Went to Aerin's at Raffles city. Waited for Candy for more than an hr. The food was a little disappointing, mayb cos my expectations were too high. The service was quite good tho.

On Saturday, we went to Mui Cher's hse for steamboat. But it was a bad turnout cos three of us couldn't make it. Disappointed. Very. Anyway, it turned out better than what we all expected. Her husky's very beautiful. Not v affectionate tho. Hehe.

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Oh, I met Adib too while on the way home with Rena and Cheng. Loooong time no see. Miss his bullying, miss bullying him. I don't want to grow up. Seeing him, I feel like going back to secondary school, primary school even.

The Golden Goblet

-- Six Hours One Friday by Max Lucado

Flames leap from the hill. Pillows of smoke float upward. Orange tongues crack and pop.

From the midst of the blaze comes a yell – the protest of a prisoner as the dungeon door is locked; the roar of a lion as he feels the heat of the burning jungle.

The cry of a lost son as he looks for his father.

“My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”

The words ricochet from star to star, crashing into the chamber of the King. Couriers from a bloody battlefield, they stumble into the King’s presence. Bruised and broken, they plea for help, for relief.

The soldiers of the King prepare to attack. They mount their steeds and position their shields. They draw their swords.

But the King is silent. It is the hour for which he has planned. He knows his course of action. He has awaited those words since the beginning – since the first poision was smuggled into the kingdom.

It came camouflaged. It came in a golden cup with a long stem. It was in the flavour of fruit. It came not in the hands of a king, but the hands of a prince – the prince of shadows.

Until this moment there had been no reason to hide in the Garden. The King walked with his children and the children knew their King. There were no secrets. There were no shadows.

Then the prince of shadows entered the Garden. He had to hide himself. He was too ugly, too repulsive. Craters marred he face. So he came in darkness. He came encircled in ebony. He was completely hidden; only his voice could be heard.

“Taste it, “ he whispered, holding the goblet before her. “It’s sweet with wisdom.”

The daughter heard the voice and turned. She was intrigued. Her eyes had never seen a shadow. There was something tantalising about his hiddenness.

The King watched. His army knew the price of shadows would be no contest for their mighty legion. Eagerly they awaited the command to attack.

But no command was given.

“The choice is hers,” the King instructed. “If she turns to us for help, that is your command to deliver her. If she doesn’t turn, if she doesn’t look at me – don’t. The choice is hers.”

The daughter stared at the goblet. Rubies embedded in gold filigree invited her touch. Wine wooed her to taste. She reached out and took the cup and drank the poison. Her eyes never looked up.

The venom rushed through her, distorting her vision, scaring her sin, and twisted her heart. She ducked into the shadow of the prince.

Suddenly she was lonely. She missed the intimacy she was made to know. Yet rather than return to the King, she chose to lure another away from him. She replenished the goblet and offered it to the son.

Once again the army snapped into position. Once again they listened for the command of the King. His words were the same. “If he looks to me, then rush to him. If he doesn’t, then don’t go. The choice is his.”

The daughter placed the goblet into the hands of the son. “It’s all right,” she assured. “It’s sweet.” The son looked at the delight that danced in her eyes. Behind her stood a silhouetted figure.

“Who is he?” the son asked.

“Drink it,” she insisted. Her voice was husky with desire.

The goblet was cold against Adam’s lips. The liquid burned his innocence. “More?” he requested as he ran his finger through the dregs on the bottom and put it to his mouth.

The soldiers looked to their King for instructions. His eyes were moist.

“Bring me your sword!” The general dismounted and stepped quickly toward the throne. He extended the unsheathed sword before the King.

The King didn’t take it; he merely touched it. As the tip of his finger encountered the top of the sword, the iron grew orange with heat. It grew brighter and brighter until it blazed.

The general held the fiery sword and awaited the King’s command. It came in the form of an edict.

“Their choice will be honoured. Where there is poison, there will be death. Where there are goblets, there will be fire. Let it be done.”

The general galloped to the Garden and took his post at the gate. The flaming sword proclaimed that the kingdom of light would never again be darkened by the passing of shadows. The King hated the shadows. He hated them because in the shadows the children could not see their King. The King hated goblets. He hated them because they made the children forget the Father.

But outside the Garden the circle of shadow grew larger and more empty goblets littered the ground. More faces were disfigured. More eyes saw distortedly. More souls were twisted. Purity was forgotten and all sight of the King was lost. No one remembered that once there was a kingdom without shadows.

In their hands were the goblets of selfishness.

On their lips was the litany of the liar. “Taste it; it’s sweet.”

And, true to the words of the King, where there was poison, there was death. Where there were goblets, there was fire. Until the day the King sent his Prince.

The same fire that ignited the sword not lit a candle and placed it amidst the shadows.

His arrival, like that of the goblet bearer, did not go unnoticed.

“A star!” was how his coming was announced. “A bright light in a dark sky.” A diamond glittering in the dirt.

“Burn brightly, my Son,” whispered the King.

Many times the Prince of Light was offered the goblet. Many times it came in the hands of those who’d abandoned the King. “Just a taste, my friend?” With anguish Jesus would look into the eyes of the those who tried to tempt him. What is this poison that would make a prisoner try to kill the one who came to release him?

The goblet still bore the seductive flavour of promised power and pleasure. But to the Son of Light is odour was vile. The very sight of the goblet so angered the Prince that he knocked it out of the hand of the tempter, leaving the two alone, locked in an intense glare.

“I will taste the poison,” swore the King’s Son. “For this I have come. But the hour will be mine to choose.”

Finally that hour came. The Son went for one last visit with his Father. He met him in another garden. A garden of gnarled trees and stony soil.

“Does it have to be this way?”

“It does.”

“Is there no one else who can do it?”

The King swallowed. “None but you.”

“Do I have to drink from the cup?”

“Yes, my Child. The same cup.”

He looked at the Prince of Light. “The darkness will be great.” He passed his hand over the spotless face of his Son. “The pain will be awful.” Then he paused and looked at his darkened dominion. When he looked up, his eyes were moist. “But there is no other way.”

The Son looked into the stars as he heard the answer. “Then, let it be done.”

Slowly the words that would kill the Son began to come from the lips of the Father.

“Hour of death, moment of sacrifice, it is your moment. Rehearsed a million times an false altars with false lambs, the moment of truth has come.

“Soldiers, you think you lead him? Ropes, you think you bind him? Men, you think you sentence him? He heeds not your commands. He winces not at your lashes. It is my voice he obeys. It is my condemnation he dreads. And it is your souls he saves.

“Oh my Son, my Child. Look up into the heavens and see my face before I turn it. Hear my voice before I silence it. Would that I could save you and them. But they don’t see and they don’t hear.

“The living must die so that the dying can live. The time has come to kill the Lamb.

“Here is the cup, my Son. The cup of sorrows. The cup of sin.

“Slam, mallet! Be true to your task. Let your ring be heard throughout the heavens.

“Lift him, soldiers. Lift him high to his throne of mercy. Lift him up to his perch of death. Lift him above the people that curse his name.

“Now plunge the tree into the earth. Plunge it deep into the heart of humanity. Deep into the strata of time past. Deep into the seeds of time future.

“Is there no angel to save my Isaac? Is there no hand to redeem the Redeemer?

“Here is the cup, my Son. Drink it alone.”

God must have wept as he performed his task. Every lie, every lure, every act done in the shadows was in that cup. Slowly, hideously they were absorbed into the body of the Son. The final act of incarnation.

The Spotless Lamb was blemished. Flames began to lick his feet.

The King obeys his own edict. “Where there is poison, there will be death. Where there are goblets, there will be fire.”

The King turns away from his Prince. The undiluted wrath of a sin-hating Father falls upon his sin-filled Son. The fire envelops him. The shadow hides him. The Son looks for his Father, but his Father cannot be seen.

“My God, my God… why?”

The throne room is dark and cavernous. The eyes of the King was closed. He is resting.

In his dream he is again in the Garden. The cool of the evening floats across the river as the three walk. They speak of the Garden – of how it is, of how it will be.

“Father… ,” the son begins. The King replays the word again. Father. Father. The word was a flower, petal-delicate, yet so easily crushed. Oh, how he longed for his children to call him Father again.

A noise snaps him from his dream. He opens his eyes and sees a transcendent figure gleaming in the doorway. “It is finished, Father. I have come home.”

Had a super eventful New Year's eve. Went to church in the mrng, then to lunch with the girls.


Shirley and


Pris and Jia

After lunch we went shopping ard Suntec, MS and citylink. Even went to Redhill as Jialin wanted to go to the TYR sales at its factory.

After tt, went back to Orchard where I met Cheng and the rest for dinner. Shall post the photos another time.

After having a wonderful dinner at Bakerzin, I went to Jialin's apt in Geylang to countdown with them. Was supposed to go to church for Watch Night Service, but they said it'll be very boring, so went to Jia's hse instead. Hehs. We played cards while watching the countdown. The boys were super funny la. Really bth their stupid jokes and antics. Hahs.




Jia and I


Samuel's very artistic and abstract photo of Amos that you surely cannot see that it's Amos.


The boys

I had a very enjoyable though tiring day. Was able to spend time with ppl I don't usually hang out with, espcially Cheng and the rest. Not all of us were there, but it was a fun and good dinner. Had fun poking at each other and stuffs. We haven't had a good talk together since the last time we went to Balcony. Hope we hv another chance again..

It's the end of the yr again. Told myself I'd do this, so here it is.

This yr passed by in a blur. Soo many things happened that I don't even rmb some of them. Hehs.

Anyway, just realised I said at the beginning of the yr that last passed very quickly too. Maybe every year passes very quickly.

I made the following resolutions the beginning of this yr:

First of all, is to stay strong in my faith.
Secondly, to grab opportunities when they arise.
Thirdly, to give without expecting.
Last of all, to learn to trust.

But I don't think I fulfilled any of them, except maybe for the first one. Oh, maybe the 2nd one too. hehs. I mean, I did grab the oppportunity to go overseas for attachment right?

As I said, many many things happened this past yr, things that I did not rmb until I went through my previous entries. Went through 2 n a half semesters this yr, and I must say that they were v eventful and lessons-rich.

From Sem 2.2 to 3.2, made new friends, lost friends, got super close to some, drifted away from some, saw some in new light, some are still seen in the same light. But I must say that every semester was filled with fun, laughter, a lot of hard work and frustration, and a great deal of satisfaction at the end of each sem. Even got to bid for a proj with a construction company outside of curriculum. Spent a lot of time fretting, worrying, and working on that. All for an empty hope.

Actually I have a lot to say, especially abt sem 3.1's projs. I think it goes for everyone of us in the class, at least most of them. But seriously, this event has put me off event planning, at least for the time being. A loong time. Used to want to be an event planner, having second thoughts even now.

Reading through my previous entries also reminded me of sth I wasted plenty of my time and emotions on. Bothered me for quite some time.

Went for my first church camp in June. Was an enriching time.

Then in Sept, I went to Shanghai for attachment. No need to say, that was the biggest happening this yr. Experienced a lot, met a lot of new friends and ppl.

When I came back I felt really alone for the first time in my life. Nobody to call, nobody to whine to, nobody to call for help, nobody to call for consolation. All in all, nobody.

Then I went back to school for the last semester of Poly. Can't believe 2.5 yrs have passed just like that. Having my exams in Feb, meaning I can start working in Mar. I am seriously very frightened of growing up.

This yr did not end with a bang. Christmas was alright. I've been rotting at home most of the time. Watching DVDs.

Don't feel like making resolutions this yr. Can't think of any anyways.

I feel miserable. Again. My nose is running/leaking non-stop; I think I've used up abt 4-5 pkts of tissue which equals up to at least 40 tissues on my stupid nose. Can you imagine?? Absolutely hate it when my nose acts up. Hope I won't get sick, or rather, sicker.

Anyways, my two weeks holidays is coming to an end. Christmas has also passed. Ironically, my Christmases have always been passed without celebration. I'm talking the day itself. Except for last year. Last year was the best. Not only the day itself, but the entire season. But this year, I only had plans for Christmas eve and not Christmas itself. I was at my cousin's place till early in the mrng of Christmas, abt 5am. But that gathering with my cousins was good! Though I was very tired that day cos I had to wake at like 6plus, and not everybody was there, and I was a 'lil pissed abt my cousin. We went to pepper lunch for dinner (I know, weird. Totally no festive mood.) and Haagen Daaz for dessert. And we had choc fondue!!! It soooo good! (To Jiahong and Corrin: I'm still waiting!)

I love meeting my cousins for gatherings. We always have so much fun together.




Dunno what my sis is taking


THE Chocolate Fondue - ice cream balls, cookies, strawberries, bananas, green apples.. Yum Yum!

Have not really met up with friends this year for Christmas unlike previous years. Not v sure why. Stms growing up scares me. It's not only abt the increased responsibilities, but also the drifting apart.

I think I blogged abt my worries on what I'll be doing after graduation. I'm going to leave it in the good (hopefully!) hands of employment agencies and the more than omnipotent hands of God.

Went to Vivocity with my mum and sis on Tuesday and we explored it thoroughly. From Tang's to the boutiques, to Giant. But after the entire day, we went home with a small bag my mum bought, sausages from marketplace and very full stomachs. Haha. Not that the clothes/stuffs at Vivo aren't beautiful, but they were either out of my very limited budget, wrong for the season in Singapore or didn't catch my eye. But, I managed to spend all my available cash at Bakersin. My sis and I wanted to treat my mum, but I had limited money and my sis who came up with the idea had no money. In the end my mum paid for a small part of the bill. Hehe. But before that we had lunch at Carl's Junior which was very very good. Shld hv let my mum treat us to Bakersin instead of Carl's.